Thursday, August 25, 2011
twentyfiveaugusttwentyeleven!
So, yes I'm back!
It's 2pm now eh ?
Never mind.
Well, I self-declared school holiday again today.
13:57
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
sixteenth august twentyeleven!
Hey!
So, yesterday was such an exhausting day! ended up oversleeping and the results is me not going to school today, so yeah.
Well, yesterday i uploaded alot of pictures on fb. So it's up.
Today until nw i'm on my bed. Lazying
Will be back tomorrow.
Ciao! :)
17:57
Monday, August 15, 2011
Hey! I'm back, like again ...
So yeah, i think i should seriously change the look of my blogskin. And seriously, i need to post here regularly.
So if you're wondering what's with the video, well let's just say i'm listening to it now. Here's the thing. I LOVE THE VERONICAS!
Was browsing through stomp earlier, and seriously, Singaporeans are just plain KAYPOH! Can they just mind their fucking business for once? Like seriously? Some guy who's 17 and he likes smoking, drinking and clubbing and you're posting it on stomp? Like for what fuck? It's his fucking life anyway, not the stomper's! seriously, douchebag, get a life!
So, it's like 3am in the morning! gotta go school later.
Speaking of school, i think i should dedicate this time to say what i seriously think about school ...
FUCK! WHY DID I CHOOSE A SCHOOL THAT IS LIKE HALFWAY ACROSS THE COUNTRY? So far! And when i wake up late, that's it. I'm just gonna say fuck care to it! And apparently, it's taking a toll on my GPA (grade point average) if you're asking .. 1.5 IS JUST PLAIN STUPIDITY AND LAZINESS! and later there's S&W, which i have to wear my PE attire. Like for what fuck ? Nevermind, then later i'm supposed to take my maths test! that 1 week of not going to school ....
Then after school, there's BAND , which seriously, like what fuck ? performance is on saturday and now, everyone needs to go cause we have like 5 DAYS TO rehearse? Like what fuck ? Gosh! that's the second like what fuck in this paragraph alone! There goes my time to actually bring up my facebook page, which is actually about my hobby. Which is buses, somehow. To you haters out there, like what fuck should i care about what you think? at least i'm not doing drugs anyway, so yeah. .Like what fuck!
Nevermind, will come back tomorrow :) ciao!
02:52
Monday, July 25, 2011
A piece of what's on my mind, literally .
Well, hello there :)
Been 3 months eh i never post here. Sorry, been busy with my life and stuff like that.
3 Months since i posted here. Trust me, 3 months is like a long time.
Changes taken place :
1. Lost some friends
2. Resigned from Old Job, in new job and is very unhappy there.
3. I've been in a relationship that not many people knows. With a guy, actually, but who cares, we're on the verge of going off seperate ways and yeah, i'm going back to straightland.
4. I kinda flunked my GPA. Not alot of people know, once again.
For the past 17 years, i've been living on my own. I'm forced to grow up due to circumstances at home etc. I should be thankful but it has been taking it's toll on me. Well, since this blog is not known to my family members, at least i can finally voice out.
Actually, i've been smoking more and it's bad cause i wanted to quit like very badly. When i'm stressed, i tend to smoke or eat more. What can i do? As much as i wanna get myself drunk, i cant.
And putting mask where ever i go is very hard actually. People think i'm actually carefree, happy, bubbly etc but actually, i'm hurt, lost and acting with a mask is the only way for me not to think about it, but i can escape from reality. It's catching up on me. I can put my feelings and thoughts aside f0r 0ther people. When it comes to me, is really anyone there for me? i doubt so. My family don't really give a fuck about me. My friends, they're just there when i'm up. When i'm down, it's just me against the world.
I skip school, skip work, skip whatever i can skip is all due to the fact that i really had enough. there are times i have sucidal thoughts, but i don't want to end my life, just like that. It's completely worthless.
Then, i want to mention this. It has been a month since i've worked at Fish N Co, located at suntec. Initially, it was actually nice, but as the days goes by. I just don't know. Suddenly, i'm getting death threats because of the fact that the person dislike me ? Well, too bad, i'm this way. As much as i wanna go work, i don't. I don't wanna face such people. Call me coward for all i care, but i need to think about myself. Who would want to go to work in such an environment like that? God damn it! Argh! I don't want to switch jobs just because of that ...
School wise, week 2 today. I so need to pull up my gpa! argh!
Don't wanna say much here. bye :)
01:08
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Haix!
Well, i think i should really share what's on my mind here than anywhere else, cause i don't even know who to talk to about this, like seriously.
Well, as you guys may not know but there has been conflicts between the community now. It's like N.Korea VS S.Korea, or even worser than that, like seriously.
Well, it began like long time ago, over this person. He somehow leaked confidential info. So yeah, he was exposed and got fired. Well, apparently, people are not happy about it. The real cause was not due to this, it was way before this but this incident made it worst. People began to side one and another, start shooting at one another, finding all sorts of reasons to bring the other party down. And of course, finding someone's weakness and using that to bring another person down.
Seriously lah, being in this "disgraced community" is like the most stupidest thing i've ever done in my life, next to smoking, of course! I came into this community to actually widen my social circle and follow my passion. Soon it's going to be 3 years i'm in the community and i feel like i made a big mistake in being it.
Eventhough i am on my own, knowing little people along the way, it also teaches me how a human behave. If you have the balls to bitch someone behind their backs, why not just say it out loud in front of that person? Where is your balls man?
And both companies have their weakness and strenghs! EVERYTHING IS THE SAME! IS IT HARD TO REGISTER THAT IN YOUR BRAINS?!!
Actually, i wanted to leave this particular community late last year, but i decided to go low on it, to stay on actually, hoping that it will be better, but look at this now, seriously, it's hard to fix back the pieces after being destroyed badly! Now, one by one, people starting to leave this community and it's still the same effect, sadly, to say cause they are just blinded by it! GOD! WILL YOU GUYS OPEN YOUR BLOODY EYES AND STOP WITH YOUR GREAT IDEAS! YOU GUYS SHOULD DO SOMETHING TO SAVE IT INSTEAD OF LETTING IT ROT FURTHER!
Well, my tagline for this, if you guys are not going to stop this, sooner or later, you will realise that no one is going to join in. In fact, they might but keep their distances away!
Well, this it it. Am gonna sleep soon, gotta work later! CIAO!
Loves <3
"Action speaks louder than words"
23:58
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
OHSIXAPRILTWENTYELEVEN :)
Hello!
So yeah, sorry for not updating much for the past month!
Well, first and foremost, i'm working, that's why i don't really spend much time blogging, like how i used to.
Yeah!
Well, am on holidays now, which school will start on Monday.
Well, i'm seeing light nowadays, not like how it was 2 months ago. But still, time will tell when it gets better.
Well, first and foremost, job is okay, but just some annoying people there.
Then, there's endy. Not that i hate him but since that day, i just don't wanna see his face. I've forgiven him but i don't know why but i'm still angry over it.
He works seriously is okay, but he's always changing his work timings. And that annoys me. He is also asking leaves as how he likes. Thanks to him, i have to work more, to cover his slot.
Already last week i got 3-4 full shifts thanks to jeff! Gosh! I hate full shifts!
Well, next month, they are changing managers again! Well, to the honest, i'm waiting for that time, let them fire Karen! That stupid bitch, who is always pressing on my wrong buttons at all times!
Nevermind, skip that for now?
Well, i'm going to keep it short for now.
Gotta do projects! HAIX!
STUPID LIFESKILLS PROJECT!
CIAO!
Will come back to update :)
01:54
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
:)
Hey bloggie!
Yes! I’m back again! See! I very faithful right? Trying to revive this oh-so-dead-blog of mine by posting more for the month of February. Am currently listening to Grenade by Bruno Mars. Found a line that is really meaningful, which is “Guess I’ll die for you baby but you won’t do the same.” You may be wondering why do I find it meaningful, but seriously, think about it. You can other people priority and put yourself second, so that people will not say negative things about you. But think about it, will they be able to do the same for you? The answer is pretty much obvious, just got to use your brains and really start thinking about it.
Well, Friday 11 February is rather weird, I should say. Let’s just say that first and foremost, after being awakened by Mariah and Badriah, I still end up falling asleep and waking up at 7.30am. Nice right? That one never mind. Gotten myself ready and left at 7.50am. Took 232 > 153 > 985 to school today. The 985, seriously I am starting not to like 985, actually. They should really do something about the bus going round and round Bukit Batok, it’s just plain annoying! Thanks to the heavy traffic at PIE and the rounding around Bukit Batok, ended up reaching school at 9.15am, which is like 1 hour 15 mins late! That one never mind.
Well, it was only ICA practical anyway. So, since I was late, I have no idea on what’s going on, and that’s the reason why I did nothing in ICA. Not more than 15 minutes later, Mr Quek gave us 45 minutes break, which still I end up returning back to class about 5-10 minutes late. Yeah, nothing much to say on what I did in class anyways. 4N3’10 will still be remembered! Yeah. Ended class at 1215. Met Jonathan, Lih Shiuan, Mariah and her hubby. Went to a block at Teck Whye to slack. And some idiot from school shooed us away. I mean what’s the point of shooing us away? It’s not like we’re creating a scene there. We were just sitting down and chatting. I don’t really like chatting in school can? Go to both cafeterias, it’s already like an arms race! Forever fighting for a table and things like that and furthermore, it’s bloody noisy there!
So, yeah, went back to school, of course! Why? I have band rehearsal. Yes! I joined brass band as my CCA in CW. Since there are no Bass Drums, I did nothing again. I know right? At that point, only 3 letter words were in my mind, and it’s FML! But it’s okay. I’ll have my chance to play those bass drums. Well, they had to run the first rehearsal, all thanks to the opening ceremony of ITE CW. And the GOH is PM Lee Hsien Loong(hope I’m getting the right spelling for his name). So yeah, everything has to be fucking perfect. And that’s not all. The tailor was late for about 2 hours! She came, took measurements for the outfit for the fanfare. And, I personally like the fanfare song. How’s band? Let’s just say that I like going to band. Quite fun, actually. Yeah, left school like around 6.30pm. Went to Pending to take 966 to meet Hui Shan to go East Coast Park, to attend Ricky’s belated birthday celebrations. Sorry Ricky for coming empty handed!
Left there at around 11pm. Thank god Hui Shan’s father sent me home. Stupid taxi! Call to book and I think it left when I came. Is it so hard for you to be so patient? Don’t bother calling comfort Taxi! Service sucks TTM! Call back to ask where on earth that taxi did went the line cut off. Got home at 12am, on the dot! Showered and currently using the computer. Going to sleep soon anyways. Got to go gym tomorrow with jinghui and then meet Muz and Izz for izz’s belated birthday celebration?
Oh ya! I forgot to mention! Izz suddenly smsed me in the morning, saying that Endy wants to meet me? Well, let’s just say that I’m not ready to face him, actually. Ever since that day, I don’t know why but I just don’t want to see him. I have forgiven him but that incident will always be vivid in my mind. Well, finally Muz talked to me, and I’m actually surprised. Well at least he has his reasons for being angry at me. I know on that day he feels like I’m using him to get something. And I understand that clearly. And for that, I’m okay with Muz but it’s a different story altogether when it comes to Endy. So I hope he will understand. Why just because over a sms the friendship created for about 9 years just break, just like that? I’m sorry Endy, I just need time to really gather my thoughts together and when I’m ready, I’ll talk to you. Maybe it won’t be like how we used to be like but I will still talk to you. So if you happen to read this, which I doubt, so, I hope you understand my situation. Ever since that day, I have not been feeling myself, seriously. I’ve been wearing a mask to cover up something that I don’t really know how to express myself. It‘s just a matter of time when I really start to explode and when I do, I don’t think anyone can actually do anything about it.
So looking forward to a day when I have it to myself, and only myself! I don’t mind travelling to some place to actually think. Sometimes, it’s better to be alone than to be around with people.
Well, I think it’s about time that I go and sleep. Come on! I had Carlsberg and Heineken earlier! Am feeling a bit drunk, but of course not drunk until that extent that I can’t think for myself!
Goodnight!
Ciao!
With Love! <3
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